This is today

I’m done with letting the MEN

crush me with words and fists that are in the shapes of dicks

NO! because I got tits does not mean you grope me

does not mean you have me

does not mean you are me

NO!

I am a human a living, breathing, a skin with a soul

I have a feeling, a thought, I have a conscience a naught, NO!
You cannot make me your game, you cannot make me your tale!

I will not be spoken of in your shaky circle and NO!

I will scream it until your ears bleed until you are crying, NOO!

I will kick the word into your face, until you see it, can you see it, NOO!

I hate your stupid breathe, it makes me sick, hear me say it, NOO!

Yes baby the only yes you will hear is this yes that says NOOOOO!

Slam

Do you really think this is who I want to be?

Do you think I am smiling back at me?

The outbursts and violence I see it all playing out.

The scene is moving and I am smashing everything dear to me.

No, I do not want to be Me.

You think it is pride or ignorance

You think it is careless, you think it is sharp

But let’s remember that you are talking about ME

I never wanted to be a person of impulse, a person that’s loud, or a person that is named “too much”

I see, what you see, and I hate what you see but what can I do

What can I do?!

I sit back and see this figure acting; she is smashing everything.

THEN

Then I realize it’s me and I have no control, and I just want to get out and run.

Every single thing that you hate I hate more so you cannot hurt me that much.

Every word that I say I hate more so you don’t have to remind me of my foul play.

If there were sticks I would burn me, water I’d drown me, a rope I would hang me.

Wait, I do that every day by living this way. My person is sinking down.

Do you see this, I want to show you the person that I have holding in my hand

That is who I want to be and she is not like that so can you give me break?

Tear it and turn it. Burn it and then you will know.

The person you see and you hate, I can do it much better.

My brain is turned in toward oppression. Slam.